So, lately... Ive been quite hopeless about a certain someone and don't know what to do.. Don't know what to say. Don't even know what to pray. It feels like sooooo many people have made so much effort and poured out so much energy speaking into her life and being there for her, and the next thing I hear she has made 12 steps back.
Its hard when you care about someone who is making bad choices. Its hard when you think they should know better and you just don't understand.. Why..?
Its hard to keep pouring out when you don't have hope.
So I guess I'm asking for prayer and advice.. I don't know what to do myself. I am choosing right now not to do or say anything. I don't want to know anything. I don't want to be lied to by her either, so I'd rather not talk. I have given up and am backing away.
I know I shouldn't but that's all I can do right now.
I don't have strength to keep trying to encourage someone who lets it go in one ear and out the other, and lets people pour all over them without any feedback that she isn't receiving, so you think its going well til the next update you hear, and her life is worse ...and she wants it that way.
Sad.
Depressing.
Not very hopeful.
I'm trying to not be emotionally attached cause it has got me so burdened in the past and I don't want to let it ruin my life being worried...
Trying not to care too much in a way, but just to love her and lift her up to God over and over has gotten quite hard lately too.
I know I need to keep praying now too but I don't have it in me any more.
Desperate for something to change cause I can't deal with it anymore.
Is it OK for me to close the door?
Is it ok for me to give up and trust that only God can do something?
I can't do anything. I don't want to try.
God help me to trust You. Help me to give it all to you.
Help me to keep praying if nothing else.
